I wasn’t trying to say anything.
To be honest, it began as a dare. During lunch, my friend Mason and I talked about how people don’t really see people on the street anymore. You might walk by a man holding a sign and not even notice his face. People don’t pay attention when he says “God bless” or asks for help.
I asked, “What if someone did the opposite?”
I held a wooden sign that said “I have a home” on the corner of 12th and Garland because of this. I own a car. I have a job. Could I give you some money for coffee?
I didn’t have high hopes. Someone might have rolled down their window to ask if it was a joke, or someone might have looked at them funny.
But then this guy in his mid-50s pulled up next to me in a rusty Civic and just stared at me for a second. He then smiled. I mean, really smiled. The kind that you don’t see very often these days.
He didn’t take my cash.
Instead, he gave me something. A folded piece of paper that is a little wrinkly. He said, “You might get this.”
The light changed, and he drove off before I could ask him what he meant.
I took out the paper.
There was no letter.
It was an order form. From a pawn shop. With a name on the front that made my chest tighten—
Since it belonged to my dad.
The date on the ticket was ten years ago. Even though I hadn’t seen it in a long time, I knew right away that it was his work. It said that a “Silver Class Ring (Initials T.R.)” had been pawned and gave a dollar amount. It wasn’t much, but it was enough to make my stomach turn.
I last saw my dad when I was twelve years old. He left without giving a reason, leaving only quiet and questions unanswered. Mom did everything she could to find him, but in the end, she stopped talking about him at all. Over time, I came to believe that he must have wanted to leave because life with us wasn’t good enough for him. But as I stood on the corner and looked at this tiny piece of paper, I felt something change inside me. It wasn’t surrender; it was a last-ditch effort.
I put the ticket in my pocket and kept giving bills to people who came by. Some took them reluctantly, while others flatly refused. One woman opened her window and told me I should give my money to charity instead. Someone else laughed and called me a “reverse panhandler.” It didn’t matter at all. I was only able to think about my dad and why he had to sell his class ring.
People on foot had almost stopped by late afternoon. The girl, who looked to be no more than eighteen, walked up. Her jeans were torn and her sneakers were kept together with duct tape. She had a bag over one shoulder and her hair was pulled back in a messy bun. She didn’t blink, laugh, or act like I wasn’t there when she looked me straight in the eye.
“Are you sure?” she asked, pointing to my sign.
“Like a heart attack,” I said, taking a five-dollar bill out of my pocket. “Coffee?”
She turned her head away. “Not for me.” For my brother.
“Your brother?”
She quickly said, “He’s sick,” as if she didn’t want to give too many information. “We’re staying at a shelter in the city.” We are able to use the kitchen, but we don’t have enough money to buy food. If you’re really giving away cash…
Her voice stopped, not sure what to say. I gave her two twenty-dollar bills. She did a hard blink, as if she were trying not to cry. Then she grabbed my wrist before I could get away.
“Why do you believe this?” She asked for it. “Trust me. “Why would someone do that?”
I gave a shrug. “I felt like trying something new.”
She looked at me one more time and then nodded. She barely said, “Thanks.” She said softly, “Be careful, okay?” before leaving. Some people may think you’re crazy, but others may think you’re easy to target.
As I got ready for the day, her words stuck with me. Simple prey. Was that what I was? Or did I just want to prove something to the world or to myself?
I took out the ticket again and looked at it again when I got home. It made me feel bad in some way. I chose to go to the pawn shop that was on the ticket. It was only a few blocks away, so I thought it would be a good idea to ask around.
As I walked in, the bell above the door rang. It smelled like old metal and dust. There was a middle-aged man behind the bar who wore thick glasses and was rude. He looked a little less angry when I showed him the ticket.
He leaned against the glass display case and said, “Yeah, I remember this one.” “Guy looked rough when he came in.” He said he needed cash quickly. He didn’t try to get a better deal—he just wanted whatever we could give him.
“Has he come back?” I asked, and my voice got a little rough.
The man turned his head away. “Nope.” After that, I never saw him again. Once people know what they’ve lost, most don’t.
“Where did the ring go?” I pressed.
He wrinkled his face. “That’s funny. A few weeks later, an older man with a really beat-up truck comes in. Gets the ring for free. He wouldn’t say why he wanted it, but he seemed very determined.
I got a chill. “Do you know where I can find him?”
The pawnshop owner thought for a moment and then wrote something on a piece of paper. “This is all I have.” Name and the number of the license plate. “Go kill yourself if it means that much to you.”
I found a small car repair shop on the edge of town by following the license plate. When I got there, the owner, a wiry man called Harold, greeted me slowly. I showed him the ticket and told him about the ring after telling him what was going on.
Harold let out a big sigh. “Yes, I bought that ring.” Not for me, though. For your dad.
“What?” I spoke slowly. “You knew him?”
Harold said, “We went way back.” “Before things went wrong, your dad used to fix cars here.” When he asked me for work, I could tell he was in pain. I knew not to push him to say why, but he wouldn’t. When he sold that ring, I found it and bought it back. Thought it might mean something to him one day.
“Where is he now?” I asked, feeling hopeful.
Harold scratched his neck. “He was living in a trailer park outside of Phoenix the last time I heard.” Taking care of himself and doing odd jobs. Kid, I don’t know what happened between you two, but that’s where you can find him if you want to know.
Phoenix was warmer than I thought it would be. The trailer park was small, with only a few faded houses baking in the sun all day. I saw my dad working on an old radio while sitting on the steps of an old, worn-out trailer. The gray streaks in his hair and the rough skin on his hands stood out when he saw me. Those warm brown eyes.
We didn’t say anything for a long time. He then said in a whisper, “Trevor?”
I agreed, but tears were running down my face. “Dad…” I believed you were gone.
He slowly stood up and hugged me in a way that felt both strange and painfully familiar. “Sorry, son. “I’m really sorry.”
That night, we talked for hours. He told me about how his gambling bills got out of hand and how he felt ashamed to face us. He also talked about the years he spent trying to fix his life. It wasn’t perfect, but it was real, and it made me feel better in a way I didn’t know I needed.
I learned a very important thing as we sat under the stars: sometimes the people we lose aren’t really gone. Sometimes, all they want is for us to find them again.
Life Lesson: Even if it seems impossible, don’t be afraid to reach out. Taking that first step can change everything, whether it’s being kind to a stranger or getting back in touch with someone you care about.
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